I found the most distressing thing in the world!!!!!
I drew this after a nice wak with my project mate :)
I love hanging out with them :D

I'm blogging every single day without a fail!

Guy Sebastian is one of my favourite artists.
He is simply good, but I know he's not the best.
But he still is my favourite, because he always gets better.
He has never disappointed me with his performance.
He is always better than the last time he sings.
I think it's the reflection of his life.

That's the way we should all live. and I'd love to become an artist like him, where my songs reflects my life.

I'm just loving this song written by Guy this morning.

Simply beautiful, I wanna live a life like this.

Taller, Stronger, Better

I've Met The Darkness
Been Held By The Night
Lonely Was There In My Arms
I've Been With Broken
I've Stared In Her Eyes
Emptiness Left Me This Scar

But I Heard Your Voice, Calling Me Out Of The Cold


And Now I Can Live Again
I Have Been Chosen To Run With The Wind
I Can Go Higher
I Know I Will Soar
I'm Taller, I'm Stronger, I'm Better Than Before

I've Walked Through Fire
So I Could Become
All That You Said I Could Be
And Now My Breath Has A Reason
My Sky Has A Sun
Cos In You I've Found All That I Need

Your Touched Revived Me, It Was Your Love That Opened My Eyes


I Broke Through The Rain
Stood Through The Storm
Now I Know I'll Remain
I Can Do The Impossible
I Can Reach The Unreachable
It's My Time
I Will Rise
And Live...

I'm so proud of my gracious God, who gives me lots of time to study for my exam :D
At the same time, I'm doing lots of other things, like teaching and helping someone to sell her stuff : )
I just cherish this time as a student : ) Thank you Jesus, it's truly your blessing!
Oh, I got a good mark for my theory paper again. It was completely unexpected, again reminds me of amazing grace of Jesus!


Hmm, one of the challenges I face this semester is the relationships with my project team and industry & experts. As I've been saying so many times now, my project mats are great. We really like each other and already developing some sort of "bonds". Somehow, though industry partners and experts are not quite available for us. We developed conflict, and it's very strange how sometimes they can be unkind to us.
I don't know what we do that make them think that we are rude.
But the way they treat us sometimes make us think that we are doing something wrong to them!

it's getting a little bit upsetting now that the due for the project proposal is a week away....Very scary. I'm really very scared :(

I guess I have to make conscious effort to think about good things God does for me and trust in Him that He'll continue to do the same, simply because He is God!

Ok. Go back to my stats.

Yayz, my peace education team has just received 90% for our 1 hour seminar!!! Praise the Lord!!!
It's really amazing because I learnt so much through this group, and each of us clearly contributed to achieve this.
(I contributed the least though...but my part was very successful!)

This semester I learnt so much through uni studies.
It was phenomenal! I really learnt how to rely on other members, and appreciate them so much :)

So this is why from this month, I will start my training to be a peace education facilitator (someone who teach how to build peaceful practice, in communities and in prisons).

I'm very excited about this, although i am undecided how far I will be involved in this organisation.
It's called AVPQ I think (lol) it's the short form of Alternatives for Violent Practices in Queensland.
My lecturer sort of leads the classes, and I'm a big big fan of her, and I just love following her : )

heeeeeee, cannot wait for the project proposal to be submitted and the exams to end! I'm bored!

I was falling asleep just now...I cannot believe how warm the lab is today.
Yesterday the room was still cold becoz of air con, but today warm breeze comes out from the same air con!
I was complaining how cold it was, but now I miss the cold lab!!!

I went to the gym just now to buy a can of mother and I'm waiting for it to work......mmm, I'm so addicted to caffine this month.

I'm using Joan's download quota to blog...hahaha me and my project mates have finished the quota of the month already! I don't know how.

I'm not been effective today...I have 30 more stats questions to answer for the day....but I don't understand how to solve them!
Stats is really fun when I know how to solve it, but it's really boring when I don't know!!!!!

This week's gonna be chaotic!

Mon: Arranging and preparing for meeting with the industry partner, tuition, writing a report, and stats
Tue: stats, writing a report, and do we have prayer?
Wed: Campus blessing, stats, project meeting, exam prep
Thu:  stats, exam prep
Fri: Meeting with the industry partner, exam prep, life group, exam prep
Sat: Exam at 11:15am!

Hmmm, I never tried spending only 3 days for 50% exams. I hope it'll be fine* Ganbare mami!

Having a break.

I did stats for 1.5 hours so I deserve it :D
I cannot think of anything creative to do in the lab, except writing blogs.

I really don't study much, aye. I should not be proud of it :(
But like Rach said in her blog (see rachel, I faithfully read your blog!), it's better for you to study smart than study a lot :)

So my  plan is that I will study 1.5 more hours and go out!
Me and aya (she is like part of me lol) are going out to eat Korean herbal soup and hot plum wine :) So healthy!


I'm happy. sunday is coming :)

I'm thankful for the idea came up to me a several days ago to get more studnets for private tuition.

Praise God for the financial blessing!

Well, I spend a whole day and a night yesterday with a good old student of mine, and it was so good coz I really wanted to catch up with her. I cooked her some Japanese too. Happy to have someone who enjoys my vegetarian food. Very happy.
Of course, I earnt some as well. How sweet is that! She'll take me to Paddington for a treat :) becoz she's like a paddington guru!

I was really unwell when i woke up this morning, so took my Mr V (not the V drink), which saved my life.

I had a new student today, and I found her very easy to be with, which I really thank God for.
I always have that fear before I meet a new student.
So it was an answered prayer, and the financial blessing was a double blessing, too.

Now, I have no excuse not to study statistics!!!!!!

Robin Grille, "parenting for a peaceful world". 2005.

It's a very good book I'm reading now. Just started 2 hours ago and I've skim-read 250pages. It's a very thought provoking book. It's well written and I am thanking the lecturer who advised me to read this book.

Grille states very conflicting (to me personally) definitions emotional elements.

He refers to guilt, "a wholly narcissitic fear of punishment", and
                  to shame, "a feeling of self-diminishment".

When I read this; I was like, hang on, are you saying that christians are simlply the people who are scared of being punished? and there's no comdemnation in christian's lives because we are free from "the fear of punishment", instead of 'being free from punishment?

To answer this question, I only have one thing to say.

Jesus died on the cross and rose on the third day, it's part of a human history.

So I do acknowledge that we as humans live with fear of being punished and we can psychologically flee ourselves from fear, it iis still Jesus who died for us and actually fleed us from condemnation. This is pretty excitiing.

Ok, completely distracted. back to study now.

I just came to lab today to write up an assignment.
It's due tomorrow.
I have what I want to say.
I have NOT started any research.
I have NOT read anything
I have NOT writte anything.
I do NOT know a single theory associated with this paper.
but it's still due tomorrow.

I think I can do it. :)

Just a little concerned that toilets wont't be available after 9pm lol

So hopefully I can finish it in 7 hours. Let's see how it goes.

By the way, another testimony of my academic results! :)
I think I wrote about 1 hour seminar my team had in peace education course.
It was based on the theory of moral imagination, developed by Lederach.
Basically it says,
think about what others think without getting into an argument, create a way for agreement.
So we did some experiments based on that, and our class together learnt how to come to a middle ground.

We just got 2pages long, massive feedback (not the marked result) today, and our lecturer said;


In terms of sheer learning, this seminar wins the prize this semester. In terms of peaceful practice, this group has demonstrated excellent development. In terms of content, the simple themes and the complex reality addressed, made this an outstanding seminar presentation. Congratulations.

:D :D :D :D :D PRAISE GOD :D :D :D :D :D

I'm in a stats lab now. Its saturday but doesn't mean i can just sunbathe or sleep through anymore.
It's so cold in the stats lab so im wearing my knee highs, which was my high school uniform 4 years ago.
Gosh I'm getting older.

Finally I just have to do all the things I procrastinated for weeks!
I have to finish my stats assignment by Tuesday. Right now, I don't really know how to answer 3/4 of the questions.... ;p
I hope I will somehow manage to finish this. and hopefully get 6, but right now, let me focus on finishing it :p
On Tuesday, I have another assignment due. This one is a theoretical paper, and I think I'm overestimating my ability to write theories...
I haven't started reading any of the theories! lol and I don't even no anything about non-violent communicative theories. I'm regretting all the procrastination now.

I will keep blogging today, I have heaps to share, but I will write during my breaks. Cherrio!

She knows how to mess your mind's up.

Only God's Word can help me to stand strong when life's bitching me.

^{1 thessalonians 5:24}
The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it.

Yes mami, stand strong.  Don't be fooled.

About one week ago, there was this lady came to our class shared with us about choosing career path.
She said that it's just like using GPS,if you know where to go, it will be clear when to go straight, turn right or turn left. If you don't know where to go, you will be just going everywhere not knowing where your destination is...

She told us about what kind of career search websites and employment opportunities up there and what is required.
It scares me sometimes, that although there is so much need in the development work, getting a job is so very hard!

As i was hearing her explanations, I was very much scared and worried how I will ever get a job.
I am one of the least marketable person in my school and not having Australian citizenship.
Development jobs are so competitive in Japan as well, so I'm not even thinking of getting into it.

On that night, I calmed down a little, and thought about what I really want to do with my life.
What my passion, gifting, call might be.

I think I really want to work in universities in Kyoto, and bring the change in the lives of university students there.
I desperately want to reach out to the young population and see spiritual revivals in Kyoto.
I want to see cultural heritage changing and all the good things about my city will glorify His name.

So that's my destination I hope to reach in the next 6-7 years. (I have other dreams for the later part of my life).

Now I have to figure out how to get there : ) ........... I think I kind of know.

Steps to be taken:
- serve Jesus and His people in the local church
-develop the gift of evangelism
- learn to mentor and raise up His little sheep :)

- get an appropriate qualification to work as a lecturer in Japan.
- deepen my knowledge in peace ed and international relationships. ( I sort of know which univ. I might be working in)
- develop connection with the peace ed and conflict resolution people in UQ

- learn Japanese language for business, for general knowledge
- learn to share gospel, pray in Japanese

-share gospel with all my family members
-> and surely they will be saved! because Acts 2:40 promises it!
-build strong and spiritually healthy relationship with my family members
-teach my family about Jesus

So that's my career path.

All my anxiety about future's gone. It's all  in his hands.

I posted this entry on "Japan Prayer Link" that my pastor in Japan started. I think this is an appropriate topic to put on my blog as well.
As you read, I appreciate your prayers as well :)

Hi fellow brothers and sisters.
I am not sure how loud this news is internationally, or even on Japanese media.

My mother and I are grieving for the increase of the people who commit suicide daily in Japan.

In December 2008, it was 83 people committing suicide everyday, just within Japan. It is a significant number and we must not overlook this.

However, this month, it has increased even more, and 100 people daily commit suicide.

I am not here to talk about how it is not God's will for us to commit suicide. Nor am I here to support suicide.

But I believe that it's important for us to realise how they had not many other choices. Because of the financial crisis last year many have lost jobs, needed to sell cars and houses. Some teens needed to quit high school, because their parents could not afford the fees. Living expense is still as high, and government has not been giving enough support.
I consider this phenomena as the consequence of structrual violence, and I really sympathise with those who gave up their lives.

My uncles fit into so called "working poor" populations, and they are, I believe in a similar situation as those who commited suicide. They work very hard, but earn very little.

As people of God, I believe that we have the authority to ask the Father in the name of Jesus to bring life, not death.

God brought me to the Scripture in Romans 12: 9-21,
rather a long passage, but worth sharing here.

Love
9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[a] Do not be conceited.

17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"[b]says the Lord. 20On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."[c] 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

There are a few things I want to share about this passage;
-It is time for us to pray for the needy, even if they are the very ones who persecute you. (I'm reminded that those who commit suicide might be those who do not know/deny God)
-It is time for us to feel with them. God calls us to share feelings with those in different circumstances. We might not be in the same situation, but we are called to care and bring comfort.
-It is time for us to provide practical help for them.
eg, v20, if they are hungry, feed them.
-Lastly, verse21 is a call for us.
v21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Let's pray together for the people in Japan and spiritual, emotional bondages to be broken that the nation will experience life abundantly.

My project mate and I spent 3 hours together this morning to fix up the little errors and we just submitted it now!
It feels so good and I think we've done a pretty good job!

I seriously appreciate this team and I learn heaps from them. I'm very happy that they appreciate my contribution as well.
Sometimes when you work with others, you don't get the response and appreciation that you think you deserve.
I think one of the reason this team works so well is because we respect each other very well.
It's pretty awesome that we also have ability to rely on each other so much.
When someone relies on you, you feel like you wanna do it well and you put the best effort :)
It happens to all of us except one of my project mates (because she is naturally very organised and hard working all the rest are pretty much like me. lol), and we have been such a good influence on each other. Loving it!

I think now I just want to go home and finish my book.
(Last night I couldn't sleep very much, because I kept reading!)

We finished on the ethical clearance! (I mean we will submit it tomorrow and the Ethics Committee will reply us in 2 months).
It went very well except that one of my project mate's email account were playing weird and we weren't able to access it until 6:30pm.
So my team spent whole afternoon together facebooking and doing some online games :P That was pretty relaxing, bet you that was the best thing you could in a rainy day like today.

We finished it by 8pm (I know my group rocks. We do our work so fast!), and I went to the uni bar by myself.
I wanted to do this for ages, and finally I did it.

I love hanging out with me, myself and I. My project mate says she will never do
"eating, drinking, going for movies, travelling (and something else I've forgotten)" by herself.
I love doing all of these by myself!!!
She says it's so miserable!
Hmmm
I know I have to do something about this, otherwise I can never have true friendships (and a husband either!)

Anyways, I had some drinks and was reading on Japanese classical book written in the early 20th century. I love the ones written in the first half of 20th century. They are very creative! The authors back then really tried to figure out the way Westerners write books, and they tried to use some of the methods seen in Western literature. The authors also enjoyed learning about culture in Britain, Germany and France, and I can see their curiosity in foreign countries throughout their writings. I just love this time and want to know so much more about them :)

So that was my beautiful night and I'm at the library now. lol i will go home in a minute.

Haha I'm extremely sleepy and having redbull at 6pm....I had a big cup of coffee in the afternoon, but it didn't do much.

Now I'm still trying to figure out what the essay question might mean...lol
I'm worried! lol

All right, I might go to the law library and sleep for a while lol