mamigon

KO

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 14:27:08 GMT

ARRGGGH

I'm just totally disturbed by my next door playing weird music, and wondering whether it's just me who is bothered.
I think it's possible to kill a person with this music. It's a new form of violence, I bet!

I just pray that everyone else in the world will be having a good night rest without any sound of violence at the back of their head.
Gosh this prayer makes me feel better. (good or bad...?)

All right. I pray that I won't hear the music ever, ever again!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mami is into Art

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 14:08:46 GMT

I found the most distressing thing in the world!!!!!
I drew this after a nice wak with my project mate :)
I love hanging out with them :D

Guy Sebastian, my favourite artist

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 01:22:01 GMT

I'm blogging every single day without a fail!

Guy Sebastian is one of my favourite artists.
He is simply good, but I know he's not the best.
But he still is my favourite, because he always gets better.
He has never disappointed me with his performance.
He is always better than the last time he sings.
I think it's the reflection of his life.

That's the way we should all live. and I'd love to become an artist like him, where my songs reflects my life.

I'm just loving this song written by Guy this morning.

Simply beautiful, I wanna live a life like this.

Taller, Stronger, Better

I've Met The Darkness
Been Held By The Night
Lonely Was There In My Arms
I've Been With Broken
I've Stared In Her Eyes
Emptiness Left Me This Scar

But I Heard Your Voice, Calling Me Out Of The Cold

And Now I Can Live Again
I Have Been Chosen To Run With The Wind
I Can Go Higher
I Know I Will Soar
I'm Taller, I'm Stronger, I'm Better Than Before

I've Walked Through Fire
So I Could Become
All That You Said I Could Be
And Now My Breath Has A Reason
My Sky Has A Sun
Cos In You I've Found All That I Need

Your Touched Revived Me, It Was Your Love That Opened My Eyes

I Broke Through The Rain
Stood Through The Storm
Now I Know I'll Remain
I Can Do The Impossible
I Can Reach The Unreachable
It's My Time
I Will Rise
And Live...

So proud of my gracious God

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 06:57:20 GMT

I'm so proud of my gracious God, who gives me lots of time to study for my exam :D
At the same time, I'm doing lots of other things, like teaching and helping someone to sell her stuff : )
I just cherish this time as a student : ) Thank you Jesus, it's truly your blessing!
Oh, I got a good mark for my theory paper again. It was completely unexpected, again reminds me of amazing grace of Jesus!

Hmm, one of the challenges I face this semester is the relationships with my project team and industry & experts. As I've been saying so many times now, my project mats are great. We really like each other and already developing some sort of "bonds". Somehow, though industry partners and experts are not quite available for us. We developed conflict, and it's very strange how sometimes they can be unkind to us.
I don't know what we do that make them think that we are rude.
But the way they treat us sometimes make us think that we are doing something wrong to them!

it's getting a little bit upsetting now that the due for the project proposal is a week away....Very scary. I'm really very scared :(

I guess I have to make conscious effort to think about good things God does for me and trust in Him that He'll continue to do the same, simply because He is God!

Ok. Go back to my stats.

Testimony for my group project again!

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 03:43:35 GMT

Yayz, my peace education team has just received 90% for our 1 hour seminar!!! Praise the Lord!!!
It's really amazing because I learnt so much through this group, and each of us clearly contributed to achieve this.
(I contributed the least though...but my part was very successful!)

This semester I learnt so much through uni studies.
It was phenomenal! I really learnt how to rely on other members, and appreciate them so much :)

So this is why from this month, I will start my training to be a peace education facilitator (someone who teach how to build peaceful practice, in communities and in prisons).

I'm very excited about this, although i am undecided how far I will be involved in this organisation.
It's called AVPQ I think (lol) it's the short form of Alternatives for Violent Practices in Queensland.
My lecturer sort of leads the classes, and I'm a big big fan of her, and I just love following her : )

heeeeeee, cannot wait for the project proposal to be submitted and the exams to end! I'm bored!

.....MOTHER!!!!!!

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 04:46:25 GMT

I was falling asleep just now...I cannot believe how warm the lab is today.
Yesterday the room was still cold becoz of air con, but today warm breeze comes out from the same air con!
I was complaining how cold it was, but now I miss the cold lab!!!

I went to the gym just now to buy a can of mother and I'm waiting for it to work......mmm, I'm so addicted to caffine this month.

I'm using Joan's download quota to blog...hahaha me and my project mates have finished the quota of the month already! I don't know how.

I'm not been effective today...I have 30 more stats questions to answer for the day....but I don't understand how to solve them!
Stats is really fun when I know how to solve it, but it's really boring when I don't know!!!!!

This week's gonna be chaotic!

Mon: Arranging and preparing for meeting with the industry partner, tuition, writing a report, and stats
Tue: stats, writing a report, and do we have prayer?
Wed: Campus blessing, stats, project meeting, exam prep
Thu: stats, exam prep
Fri: Meeting with the industry partner, exam prep, life group, exam prep
Sat: Exam at 11:15am!

Hmmm, I never tried spending only 3 days for 50% exams. I hope it'll be fine* Ganbare mami!

Who wants to buy Japanese fashion magazines?

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 14:11:13 GMT

I am selling japanese fashion magazines for $3 each, and 4 for $10!!!!

Here's the magazine I'm selling.
PS

http://www.pretty-style.com/

I'm selling the 2008 version, but they are in fashion!

They have sooooo much items and you don't have to understand Japanese to enjoy it!
Cute girls are on, too. You can also see how they put make ups :D

Study, study break, break from study break and study, study break....

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 07:39:30 GMT

Having a break.

I did stats for 1.5 hours so I deserve it :D
I cannot think of anything creative to do in the lab, except writing blogs.

I really don't study much, aye. I should not be proud of it :(
But like Rach said in her blog (see rachel, I faithfully read your blog!), it's better for you to study smart than study a lot :)

So my plan is that I will study 1.5 more hours and go out!
Me and aya (she is like part of me lol) are going out to eat Korean herbal soup and hot plum wine :) So healthy!

I'm happy. sunday is coming :)

Thankful

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 05:42:13 GMT

I'm thankful for the idea came up to me a several days ago to get more studnets for private tuition.

Praise God for the financial blessing!

Well, I spend a whole day and a night yesterday with a good old student of mine, and it was so good coz I really wanted to catch up with her. I cooked her some Japanese too. Happy to have someone who enjoys my vegetarian food. Very happy.
Of course, I earnt some as well. How sweet is that! She'll take me to Paddington for a treat :) becoz she's like a paddington guru!

I was really unwell when i woke up this morning, so took my Mr V (not the V drink), which saved my life.

I had a new student today, and I found her very easy to be with, which I really thank God for.
I always have that fear before I meet a new student.
So it was an answered prayer, and the financial blessing was a double blessing, too.

Now, I have no excuse not to study statistics!!!!!!

lots of things going on in my mind

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 01:07:34 GMT

Lots and lots of questions about theories I learnt this semester are unsolved in my head.

Swot Vac is a time of reflection for me, and I have this big question this semester.

just share some of the questions here. Not all of them, so that it won't bother you as you prepare for exams.

Are we violent in nature?
Or is violence socially structured?
If so, what "nature" in us is causing us to act violently?....skip the series of questions here.....
If we are not violent in nature and violence is culturally structured, can we, then, create culture of peace instead?
Do we have any "nature" to create culture of peace in our DNA? Or do we not have to have one, if the theory saying "violence is socially structured" is correct?

Phew. I feel better now. I'm gonna go back to do my project.

Thank you.

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 10:03:54 GMT

I'm finishing my second book :D Hahaha! This is full on learning and it's so stimulating!

I'm reading on a chapter called "expressing appreciation in non-violent communication".

Suddenly remembered a 'thank you" that encouraged me so much.

It was back in high school, when my Kerala paper (if you are close enough with me, you know what it is) got awarded by my high school.

My teacher mary was announcing that to everyone's prarents on the day of graduation, and she handed me the published book.

and she said,

"thank you".

then she said something like I have done an important work, and praised me so much. I think she was just a bit too excited :p

man, I still remember how the 'thank you" sounded like. i even remember my reaction to it. I remember thinking, how important can this 3000 word paper could ever get...

But when I recall her "thank you", I'm so encouraged and I start to feel I can do something far better than I think I can do.

:D

Challenging Definitions.

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 07:02:36 GMT

Robin Grille, "parenting for a peaceful world". 2005.

It's a very good book I'm reading now. Just started 2 hours ago and I've skim-read 250pages. It's a very thought provoking book. It's well written and I am thanking the lecturer who advised me to read this book.

Grille states very conflicting (to me personally) definitions emotional elements.

He refers to guilt, "a wholly narcissitic fear of punishment", and
to shame, "a feeling of self-diminishment".

When I read this; I was like, hang on, are you saying that christians are simlply the people who are scared of being punished? and there's no comdemnation in christian's lives because we are free from "the fear of punishment", instead of 'being free from punishment?

To answer this question, I only have one thing to say.

Jesus died on the cross and rose on the third day, it's part of a human history.

So I do acknowledge that we as humans live with fear of being punished and we can psychologically flee ourselves from fear, it iis still Jesus who died for us and actually fleed us from condemnation. This is pretty excitiing.

Ok, completely distracted. back to study now.

lab work again.

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 04:07:16 GMT

I just came to lab today to write up an assignment.
It's due tomorrow.
I have what I want to say.
I have NOT started any research.
I have NOT read anything
I have NOT writte anything.
I do NOT know a single theory associated with this paper.
but it's still due tomorrow.

I think I can do it. :)

Just a little concerned that toilets wont't be available after 9pm lol

So hopefully I can finish it in 7 hours. Let's see how it goes.

By the way, another testimony of my academic results! :)
I think I wrote about 1 hour seminar my team had in peace education course.
It was based on the theory of moral imagination, developed by Lederach.
Basically it says,
think about what others think without getting into an argument, create a way for agreement.
So we did some experiments based on that, and our class together learnt how to come to a middle ground.

We just got 2pages long, massive feedback (not the marked result) today, and our lecturer said;

In terms of sheer learning, this seminar wins the prize this semester. In terms of peaceful practice, this group has demonstrated excellent development. In terms of content, the simple themes and the complex reality addressed, made this an outstanding seminar presentation. Congratulations.

:D :D :D :D :D PRAISE GOD :D :D :D :D :D

knee high socks and my stats lab.

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 03:54:54 GMT

I'm in a stats lab now. Its saturday but doesn't mean i can just sunbathe or sleep through anymore.
It's so cold in the stats lab so im wearing my knee highs, which was my high school uniform 4 years ago.
Gosh I'm getting older.

Finally I just have to do all the things I procrastinated for weeks!
I have to finish my stats assignment by Tuesday. Right now, I don't really know how to answer 3/4 of the questions.... ;p
I hope I will somehow manage to finish this. and hopefully get 6, but right now, let me focus on finishing it :p
On Tuesday, I have another assignment due. This one is a theoretical paper, and I think I'm overestimating my ability to write theories...
I haven't started reading any of the theories! lol and I don't even no anything about non-violent communicative theories. I'm regretting all the procrastination now.

I will keep blogging today, I have heaps to share, but I will write during my breaks. Cherrio!

Life is a bitch.

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 01:26:50 GMT

She knows how to mess your mind's up.

Only God's Word can help me to stand strong when life's bitching me.

^{1 thessalonians 5:24}The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it.

Yes mami, stand strong. Don't be fooled.

Career Path

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 03:39:22 GMT

About one week ago, there was this lady came to our class shared with us about choosing career path.
She said that it's just like using GPS,if you know where to go, it will be clear when to go straight, turn right or turn left. If you don't know where to go, you will be just going everywhere not knowing where your destination is...

She told us about what kind of career search websites and employment opportunities up there and what is required.
It scares me sometimes, that although there is so much need in the development work, getting a job is so very hard!

As i was hearing her explanations, I was very much scared and worried how I will ever get a job.
I am one of the least marketable person in my school and not having Australian citizenship.
Development jobs are so competitive in Japan as well, so I'm not even thinking of getting into it.

On that night, I calmed down a little, and thought about what I really want to do with my life.
What my passion, gifting, call might be.

I think I really want to work in universities in Kyoto, and bring the change in the lives of university students there.
I desperately want to reach out to the young population and see spiritual revivals in Kyoto.
I want to see cultural heritage changing and all the good things about my city will glorify His name.

So that's my destination I hope to reach in the next 6-7 years. (I have other dreams for the later part of my life).

Now I have to figure out how to get there : ) ........... I think I kind of know.

Steps to be taken:
- serve Jesus and His people in the local church
-develop the gift of evangelism
- learn to mentor and raise up His little sheep :)

- get an appropriate qualification to work as a lecturer in Japan.
- deepen my knowledge in peace ed and international relationships. ( I sort of know which univ. I might be working in)
- develop connection with the peace ed and conflict resolution people in UQ

- learn Japanese language for business, for general knowledge
- learn to share gospel, pray in Japanese

-share gospel with all my family members
-> and surely they will be saved! because Acts 2:40 promises it!
-build strong and spiritually healthy relationship with my family members
-teach my family about Jesus

So that's my career path.

All my anxiety about future's gone. It's all in his hands.

Prayer Required:

Fri, 29 May 2009 21:08:44 GMT

I posted this entry on "Japan Prayer Link" that my pastor in Japan started. I think this is an appropriate topic to put on my blog as well.
As you read, I appreciate your prayers as well :)

Hi fellow brothers and sisters.
I am not sure how loud this news is internationally, or even on Japanese media.

My mother and I are grieving for the increase of the people who commit suicide daily in Japan.

In December 2008, it was 83 people committing suicide everyday, just within Japan. It is a significant number and we must not overlook this.

However, this month, it has increased even more, and 100 people daily commit suicide.

I am not here to talk about how it is not God's will for us to commit suicide. Nor am I here to support suicide.

But I believe that it's important for us to realise how they had not many other choices. Because of the financial crisis last year many have lost jobs, needed to sell cars and houses. Some teens needed to quit high school, because their parents could not afford the fees. Living expense is still as high, and government has not been giving enough support.
I consider this phenomena as the consequence of structrual violence, and I really sympathise with those who gave up their lives.

My uncles fit into so called "working poor" populations, and they are, I believe in a similar situation as those who commited suicide. They work very hard, but earn very little.

As people of God, I believe that we have the authority to ask the Father in the name of Jesus to bring life, not death.

God brought me to the Scripture in Romans 12: 9-21,
rather a long passage, but worth sharing here.

Love
9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[a] Do not be conceited.

17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"[b]says the Lord. 20On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."[c] 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

There are a few things I want to share about this passage;
-It is time for us to pray for the needy, even if they are the very ones who persecute you. (I'm reminded that those who commit suicide might be those who do not know/deny God)
-It is time for us to feel with them. God calls us to share feelings with those in different circumstances. We might not be in the same situation, but we are called to care and bring comfort.
-It is time for us to provide practical help for them.
eg, v20, if they are hungry, feed them.
-Lastly, verse21 is a call for us.
v21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Let's pray together for the people in Japan and spiritual, emotional bondages to be broken that the nation will experience life abundantly.

Ethics application submitted.

Thu, 21 May 2009 04:37:33 GMT

My project mate and I spent 3 hours together this morning to fix up the little errors and we just submitted it now!
It feels so good and I think we've done a pretty good job!

I seriously appreciate this team and I learn heaps from them. I'm very happy that they appreciate my contribution as well.
Sometimes when you work with others, you don't get the response and appreciation that you think you deserve.
I think one of the reason this team works so well is because we respect each other very well.
It's pretty awesome that we also have ability to rely on each other so much.
When someone relies on you, you feel like you wanna do it well and you put the best effort :)
It happens to all of us except one of my project mates (because she is naturally very organised and hard working all the rest are pretty much like me. lol), and we have been such a good influence on each other. Loving it!

I think now I just want to go home and finish my book.
(Last night I couldn't sleep very much, because I kept reading!)

FINISHED! and DRINKING

Wed, 20 May 2009 11:54:27 GMT

We finished on the ethical clearance! (I mean we will submit it tomorrow and the Ethics Committee will reply us in 2 months).
It went very well except that one of my project mate's email account were playing weird and we weren't able to access it until 6:30pm.
So my team spent whole afternoon together facebooking and doing some online games :P That was pretty relaxing, bet you that was the best thing you could in a rainy day like today.

We finished it by 8pm (I know my group rocks. We do our work so fast!), and I went to the uni bar by myself.
I wanted to do this for ages, and finally I did it.

I love hanging out with me, myself and I. My project mate says she will never do
"eating, drinking, going for movies, travelling (and something else I've forgotten)" by herself.
I love doing all of these by myself!!!
She says it's so miserable!
Hmmm
I know I have to do something about this, otherwise I can never have true friendships (and a husband either!)

Anyways, I had some drinks and was reading on Japanese classical book written in the early 20th century. I love the ones written in the first half of 20th century. They are very creative! The authors back then really tried to figure out the way Westerners write books, and they tried to use some of the methods seen in Western literature. The authors also enjoyed learning about culture in Britain, Germany and France, and I can see their curiosity in foreign countries throughout their writings. I just love this time and want to know so much more about them :)

So that was my beautiful night and I'm at the library now. lol i will go home in a minute.

Going Crazy

Thu, 14 May 2009 08:00:04 GMT

Haha I'm extremely sleepy and having redbull at 6pm....I had a big cup of coffee in the afternoon, but it didn't do much.

Now I'm still trying to figure out what the essay question might mean...lol
I'm worried! lol

All right, I might go to the law library and sleep for a while lol

Yeeha I'm posting two days in a row!

Thu, 14 May 2009 04:36:08 GMT

I went for campus evangelism today. It means talking to random people on campus and share about Jesus.
Me and Ann Louise talked to 2 new friends :)
It's nice to hear from different ones every week.
It's also nice to make mistakes every week.
I know experiences will builds up confidence and the knowledge of "what not to do" next time :P

It's tough but I'm learning it.
I think I'm suck at it .
but everyone who I look up to (in terms of the gift of evangelism) share with me their mistakes in the past,
and I realise they too were pretty suck at it! lol
I don't know whether it comforts anyone, but the amount of mistake they've made is pretty phenomenal too. lol
I guess God takes delight in the faith, boldness and obedience of those who continued to make mistakes yet continued to put value and priority in spreading the message of salvation.

So I'm not giving up! No way I am! (A bit of encouragement will help sometimes:) remind me sometimes that I'm doing it for Jesus )

NOW, I have to start writing up my Ethiopian Famine 1983 analysis. From the scratch, and finish it by the morning.
This is phenomenal XD

What I've been up to.

Wed, 13 May 2009 10:08:28 GMT

I'm finally experiencing the craziness of uni life this week.

My project team just finished doing the first draft of ethical clearance form to conduct our research for next semester.
Ethical clearance form is the most ridiculous yet crucial form of sheet you can ever fill in to conduct research in the name of university.
We have to write so much in detail about how we will conduct an ethically sound research.
For example, we will mention how we will start and finish our interview on time, by us arriving to the venue 15 minutes earlier, so that we will have minimal effect on the work commitment of interviewees.
Pretty interesting experience, I think. Glad that the university gives us this opportunities, before we get into post-grad level.

Actually, I guess I enjoy this project all because of my project team. We have such an international team (all the way from japan, yemen, kenya, and toowomba!), different beliefs, different culture and educational backgrounds. I'm loving it!

Outside of uni work, I signed a petition to foreign minister Nakasone to financially and militarily intervene the conflict happening in Sri Lanka. If anyone wants to join us, go to Avaaz.com they will have the petition form there.

As Christians, what we can do is not just prayers.

Nehemiah had the heart for the people of Israel. He prayed and started work of building wall to protect God's people.
He prayed and he did what he had to do.

God has given us hands and feet for a reason. Notice you don't need hands and feet to pray.

I'll get back to my study now. I was about to give in though, coz I wasn't feeling well today.

But when I saw a small cross necklace shining on me just now, it reminded me of the Father's love and I felt like I could do it again.
The precious cross necklace given my earthly father, it reminds me how much God cares about me has blessed me.
Restoration God has done between me and my dad is just so miraculous, and I can only say it's Jesus who restored it!
By the way, I'm writing a paper on how my father and I experienced reconciliation and restoration, hopefully it will bring glory to Jesus : )

Japanese entry

Sun, 10 May 2009 01:41:13 GMT

今日は日曜日♪礼拝です♪

今花花の一番ほしかったものを自分が歌ったのを聴いてます。

いい歌やね。

一番ほしかったものはあなたが持ってた
一番ほしかったものをあなたがくれた

もっと先に会えたらよかったと言った
もっと後に会えてもよかったと言った

あなたが両手で私の頬を包んだ後
全てのことが分からなくなって、分かってくる

ゴスペルやんなこれ。

最近神様のこと全然書いてないけど
言うまでもないけどイエスは健在です♪
（なんか自分で書いてみて笑えたけど。今。）
優しくて、強くて、どこまでもみんなの味方の、
アンパンマンみたいなイエス:D
イエスはみんなに変わらない愛を注ぎ続けてくれてるよ☆

新約聖書:ローマ人への手紙５章６-８節

v6私たちがまだ弱かったとき、キリストは定められた時に、不敬虔な者のために死んでくださいました。
v7正しい人のためにでも死ぬ人はほとんどありません。情け深い人のためには、進んで死ぬ人があるいはいるでしょう
v8しかし私たちがまた罪人であったとき、キリストが私たちのために死んでくださったことにより、神は私たちたちに対するご自身の愛を明らかにしておられます。

みんな愛されてるよ、愛されてるんよ:)

from a mother to green (it sounds like a ecofeminist article!!!!)

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 04:31:12 GMT

I'm seriously sleepy at the moment.
It's 2:30pm
Yesterday at around 6pm, I had a can of mother, the 500ml energy drink.
Then I couldn't get to sleep until 4 in the morning!!!

I even woke up high, and I came to uni.
Now the effect of mother is slowly dying away, and I am seriously sleepy!!!
I just wanna go home and sleep, and it seriously feel like the right thing to do!
But my assignment is due tomorrow, but I have a lab in the morning, so I have to finish it today!

Not that stressed though ; ) Just disappointed coz im awfully sleepy :(

I'm gonna go get a spinach drink I love from merlo cafe!

Group Project

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 08:19:43 GMT

My director sent me the group members I will be working throughout this year. Praise God the members are who I am comfortable working with, although I don't know one person. I am really happy about the groupings. I think my director did a good job. lol
It released a bit of my fear, and I have hope that I can do it with them. It's possible! :)

Today i had a fantastic time learning heaps of new stuff at uni, and the lecturer invited some of us for lunch, and had a meaningful chat :)
He invited us for his conference on Wednesday, so it'll be awesome to hear what he has to say!!!
I will not mention his name here, because I don't think I agree with his ontology (fundamental belief of what things are). I am a big fan of him though, because he's really broadening my mind so much.

The subject that I study is very controversial, when you contrast with the truth in the Bible. Obviously that doesn't make the Bible contents false. I personally by faith believe that inconsistencies with study materials and the Bible means the flaw in the study materials. This really makes me want to study the Bible more, and vice versa.

It's fantastic to do development in such an era, where people are trying to look back "primitive" societies and trying to learn from it, some trying to go back to it. This is a remarkable time to study development, and something like this has never happened before.

I really don't know where God's leading me into in few years, but this is where my passion lays, and I really pray that i can do something revolutionary about it, to tell people how Jesus is the peace maker, peace builder, non-violent activist, peace educator, mediator, doctor, collector (i meant someone who collect food and provide, not a hunter) and everything I can possibly think that is good for humanity.

That's my theoretical perspective and I am seriously not planning to change it.
and I study development and peace study today to be more convicted about my perspectives.